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05 October 2009 @ 08:43 pm
 I am chronically sorry for leaving all of you faithful readers hanging. I know I said the update would be soon, and I know that no one's interpretation of the word 'soon' translates into seven months down the track. I'm sorry! I wasn't quiet as ready as I thought I was.

BUT! Guess what! I finally got this chapter together and decided that this was as good as its going to get. I'm sorry if it's found wanting a bit (I'm not over the moon about it) but I can't keep it around any longer without destroying my muse completely. The next chapter IS in the works, from BPOV, and I think you're all going to enjoy it, because I'm feeling really good about it.

Thank you to everyone for being so supportive and understanding.

I really hope you do enjoy!

Title: It's Better When I Bleed For You
Author: xxgoldeneyesxx
Rating: M
Category: AU
Characters/Pairings: Bella and the Cullens/All canon pairings
Spoilers: All books, in a subtle way...
Summary:

I had never wished more fervently that I could bend time, that I could go back and never leave her, than I had when Alice had told me she was dead.
When Laurent and Bella cross paths in the meadow, Alice sees that Bella doesn't manage to escape before Laurent attacks her. Alice sees Laurent drinking from her and when everything goes black, Alice assumes it means the very worst for Bella. What Alice can't see is the arrival of the werewolves, interrupting Laurent's meal. Edward goes to Italy, but his attempted suicide is diverted by his loyal family, who eventually convince him to come back with them. Eighty years later, the Cullens decide to relocate to Chicago...
 
Disclaimer: The rights and characters of Twilight do not belong to me...it's kind of depressing...All honours to Stephenie Meyer...


Part XIII - Are you insane? Have you utterly lost your mind?Collapse )
 
 
Where am I ?: My bed...
How ya feelin' right about now ?: tiredtired
Watcha listenin' to ?: Eyes on Fire - Blue Foundation
 
 
Backes
18 April 2009 @ 12:53 pm

Okay, so I kind of disappeared off the face of the earth for a while there. Like I said in the Author’s Note on the last chapter, I was dealing with some pretty serious issues, but the problem was I wasn’t dealing with them well. 

But now, it’s all good! :} I’ve dealt with them, I’ve moved on and I’ve been able to concentrate on things that are important. And, yes, that does include IBWIBFY. All of you stressing that I have forgotten about the story, fear not—I never forgot about it (who could ever forget about Twilight?). I just had to step back and leave it alone for a while because I was worried that if I tried to work on it while I was messed up, I’d ruin the story. And I think I did a good thing in doing that, even if it caused a bit of panic about the story’s future. In all honesty, I was actually considering scrapping the story, but it’s a good thing I changed my mind, eh?

Ah, I’d just like to thank everyone for being so supportive, for all the smiles and well-wishes. So…thank you. I avoided my inbox for a while, and when I finally logged back in for the first time a couple of months ago, it was chocas with reviews and PMs, all hoping I find my muse, and that things work out ok…and they were the first real step back towards working on the story. I know this might sound trivial, but it was a pretty dark time for me—I’m not usually a negative person, but at the time, everything was too much, and I couldn’t see any way out. And the reviews and stuff really did help. It’s really…uplifting, for want of a better word, to know that there are people out there who actually cared about something I did, and that they liked it and wanted more. It gave the work I had been doing a purpose, made it worthwhile. So basically, you guys have kept this story alive.

Uh, I also want to thank my boyfriend, too. He was the real driving force behind everything. One day he got a bit curious about all the emails I was getting, because they were all from the same place. I was a bit grudging when I told him what it was, being all the emails from FanFiction.net, because I’m pretty shy about my writing. I explained that I wrote Fan Fiction for Twilight and he laughed. Yeah, that was a real confidence booster, right there. He knows I love to write, he just didn’t know that I wrote Fan Fiction—he found it funny for some reason…what reason, I’m not really sure, he never could elaborate for me.

Now, the thing about my boyfriend is that he doesn’t like to read. He’s one of those guys that have never read a book from cover to cover because he just can’t see the point of it when you can watch a live action film instead. So I didn’t think he’d chase it any further. Yet, when I came home from work one night, there he was, sitting on the computer, reading IBWIBFY on FanFiction.net. I was mortified. Posting it on the net for you guys to read is one thing, but to have someone so close to me read it is a completely different thing entirely. I’m not really sure why, but I just find it so nerve-racking. He said he wanted to see what it was about the story that caught you all. And ever since, he’s been urging me to write. :} And not just my Fan Fiction—he’s also been pushing me to work on my own little project that I also pushed away. He wants me to work on that more than the Fan Fiction because “it has more potential”. I hadn’t realised he’d read my own story until he said that. He got all sheepish, when I confronted him about it (you have to understand that I haven’t let anyone read it—not even my mother—and I get pretty territorial about it) and said he wanted to see if it was as good as IBWIBFY. LOL. That’s the only thing that saved him from sleeping outside.

But yeah. It’s not just the Fan Fiction he helped me with. I probably wouldn’t be where I am today if didn’t have him.

So you guys can expect an update sometime in the near future :} I’m excited to get it up—I just have to get some small kinks worked out of it, then it’ll be sweet. Also, keep your eye out for a new story I’ve been working on. It’s a bit darker than IBWIBFY because I take Edward in a new direction, but I’ve tried to stay as true to the characters as possible.

Much love all,

Sarah x

 
 
How ya feelin' right about now ?: creative
Watcha listenin' to ?: The End - Blue October
 
 
 
Backes
11 November 2008 @ 12:10 pm
Hello...

Guys, I'm so sorry for the long wait!

I've been through some pretty hectic things lately and I haven't been able to concentrate on anything for an extended period of time, which is why this chapter isn't up to par with the others and why it's taken so long. I haven't forgotten the story, I just lost all motivation. I think the only reason you guys are getting this chapter now is because of all the beautiful and encouraging reviews and PM's you guys have been leaving. They've helped me write a little bit each day and I always go back to them when I'm feeling really stumped. So thankyou!

As I said, this chapter isn't up to par and I don't really want to post it because I feel like it's missing something but if I don't post it now, I don't know if I ever will. So I just figure I'll post it and move onto editing the next chapter, which is in Edward's POV...

Much love guys, and please keep those reviews coming!

x x x


Title: It's Better When I Bleed For You
Author: xxgoldeneyesxx
Rating: M
Category: AU
Characters/Pairings: Bella and the Cullens/All canon pairings
Spoilers: All books, in a subtle way...
Summary:

I had never wished more fervently that I could bend time, that I could go back and never leave her, than I had when Alice had told me she was dead.
When Laurent and Bella cross paths in the meadow, Alice sees that Bella doesn't manage to escape before Laurent attacks her. Alice sees Laurent drinking from her and when everything goes black, Alice assumes it means the very worst for Bella. What Alice can't see is the arrival of the werewolves, interrupting Laurent's meal. Edward goes to Italy, but his attempted suicide is diverted by his loyal family, who eventually convince him to come back with them. Eighty years later, the Cullens decide to relocate to Chicago...
 
Disclaimer: The rights and characters of Twilight do not belong to me...it's kind of depressing...All honours to Stephenie Meyer...

 

Part XII - Would you leave me unable to defend myself?...Collapse )

 


 

 
 
Where am I ?: my bedroom
How ya feelin' right about now ?: depresseddepressed
Watcha listenin' to ?: Black Orchid - Blue October
 
 
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12 September 2008 @ 08:51 pm

OH MY EDWARD...


You guys ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks to all your spectacular votes, you spectacular people, It's Better When I Bleed For You has come away with another award...
 


THANKYOU so MUCH, loves!!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 
 
Where am I ?: Bedroom
How ya feelin' right about now ?: tiredtired
Watcha listenin' to ?: Watching "The Cutting Edge", actually...
 
 
 
Backes
12 September 2008 @ 05:18 pm

Sorry for the wait, loves :C I was being a good girl and getting uni assignments done and working on getting the next couple of chapters written as well so that updates won't be anywhere near as long in coming. I'm hoping for one a week from now on...HOPING--I'm not making promises. I've also been caught up in a new story line for one of our favourite couples (yes, I do mean Bella and Edward). Hopefully that'll be up in the next week or so as well...

Oh! And I almost forgot! 'It's Better When I Bleed For You' won another award for BEST OVERALL STORY over at the Twilight Fanfiction Awards! Thankyou so much to everyone who voted! I'll post the banner up when I get home :)

IMPORTANT!!!  This is posted in 2 parts because it won't let me upload it all together :/ grr...
**Edit** Okay, I'm officially peeved. I just tried posting the second part of Part XI and guess what...IT'S TOO BIG!!!!!!!!!!! That's so not true, because it's only the second longest chapter and I had no trouble posting the longest one in one hit. So...since I can't upload part 2 all together, and I refuse to split the story up any more (it is meant to be read all together, after all) I'm just going to post the link to fanfiction.net. If you've already read the first part I posted, I'm sorry. I really am. I'm really ticked. But please, let me know what you think! If you don't have a fanfic account, make sure you come back and leave me a comment, yea?

Title: It's Better When I Bleed For You
Author: xxgoldeneyesxx
Rating: M
Category: AU
Characters/Pairings: Bella and the Cullens/All canon pairings.
Spoilers: All books (just to be safe)
Summary:

I had never wished more fervently that I could bend time, that I could go back and never leave her, than I had when Alice had told me she was dead.
When Laurent and Bella cross paths in the meadow, Alice sees that Bella doesn't manage to escape before Laurent attacks her. Alice sees Laurent drinking from her and when everything goes black, Alice assumes it means the very worst for Bella.
What Alice can't see is the arrival of the werewolves, interrupting Laurent's meal.
Edward goes to Italy, but his attempted suicide is diverted by his loyal family, who eventually convince him to come back with them.
Eighty years later, the Cullens decide to relocate to Chicago...
 

Disclaimer: Not mine--I'm just borrowing...

Now, the chapter in its full glory:

Part XI--You'd be surprised...at how often my kind are the source behind the horrors in...human news...

 
 
Where am I ?: Bed
How ya feelin' right about now ?: frustratedfrustrated
Watcha listenin' to ?: Come In Closer -- Blue October
 
 
 
Backes
13 August 2008 @ 03:43 pm

Well, here we are campers!

Just before we go to the fic, I would just like to state for the record that I loved "Breaking Dawn"... 
=}
Now,
I just want to quickly thank everyone for reading the last Part--I haven't had time to do anything more other than check my inbox over the last couple of weeks, but I promise to get around to responding after I've finished my essay for uni. So thankyou so much! =}
And NOW...
The long awaited Part X
It's a bit shorter than previous chapters but I thought it best to do it this way.

Do enjoy! 

Title: It's Better When I Bleed For You
Author: xxgoldeneyesxx
Category: AU
Characters/Pairings: Bella and the Cullens/All canon pairings
Rating: M
Spoilers: All books, I guess
Summary: I had never wished more fervently that I could bend time, that I could go back and never leave her, than I had when Alice had told me she was dead. 
When Laurent and Bella cross paths in the meadow, Alice sees that Bella doesn't manage to escape before Laurent attacks her. Alice sees Laurent drinking from her and when everything goes black, Alice assumes it means the very worst for Bella. 
What Alice can't see is the arrival of the werewolves, interrupting Laurent's meal. 
Edward goes to Italy, but his attempted suicide is diverted by his loyal family, who eventually convince him to come back with them.
Eighty years later, the Cullens decide to relocate to Chicago...

Disclaimer: This genius is so not mine...because of its genius-ness...All things recognisable belong to Stephenie Meyer


=]
Hope you liked it!
Another little reminder, in case you didn't see my last post...This story has been nominated for another award over at TwilightFanFictionAwards for Favourte Overall Story. I think nominations are still open, if you want to nominate other stories (I know I've got a few I'm going to nominate) and, of course, when voting opens, I'd love for you to vote for this fic ^.^

Much love guys!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
 
 
How ya feelin' right about now ?: cheerfulcheerful
Watcha listenin' to ?: Slipknot - Pulse of the Maggots
 
 
 
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31 July 2008 @ 08:22 am
OME!!

I just received an e-mail informing me of another nomination my story It's Better When I Bleed For You, this time over at the Twilight Fanfiction Awards.

My Edward, I am so stoked.

Nominations are still open (I think o.O) so go nominate any of your other favourites as well! Voting begins on the 4th of August, I do believe (long enough for everyone [well, most people] to have read Breaking Dawn *squee*), and will close on the 30th.

Much love guys!

Sarah

xoxoxoxoxo
 
 
Watcha listenin' to ?: Into the Ocean - Blue October
 
 
Backes
29 July 2008 @ 09:35 am

Hey guys...

Sorry for the long wait again...my only excuse is that I've been so busy and I feel like I'm about to keel over and die.

Okay, so maybe that's being just a little bit dramatic, but I am exhausted.

Thankyou, once again, for all your reviews and comments =} I love you all and I am really sorry for making you wait.

Title: It's Better When I Bleed For You
Author: xxgoldeneyesxx
Rating: M
Category: AU
Characters/Pairings: Bella and the Cullens/All canon pairings
Spoilers: All books

Disclaimer: Twilight is still not mine...Everything still belongs to Stephenie Meyer...damn.

 
 
Where am I ?: AIC - University
How ya feelin' right about now ?: sleepysleepy
Watcha listenin' to ?: Evanesence - Fallen
 
 
 
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~THANKYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~



That's all I have to say, 'cause I can't really tell you all how stoked I am!

=}

Much love!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 
 
Where am I ?: AIC - University
How ya feelin' right about now ?: accomplished
Watcha listenin' to ?: Evanesence - Going Under
 
 
Backes
12 July 2008 @ 08:12 am
Hey guys,

This here is the end of the fluffy smutt. Hopefully now I'll be able to keep writing IBWIBFY without it constantly plaguing my head!

Don't forget, voting is still open over at the Twilight Awards, so if you love IBWIBFY, go vote for it!

Title: You Could Be Mine
Author: xxgoldeneyesxx
Rating: M
Category: Fluffy Smutt
Characters: Edward and Bella
Spoilers: Depends how you look at it...I don't think so really.
Summary: The wedding night, xxgoldeneyesxx style! So don't expect anything insultingly graphic!

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight copyrights...

!EDIT! This story has now been nominated (courtesy of hp-twilightobsessedchels) over at the Twilight Awards as well in the Romantastic Round for Best Chemistry and Best Sex Scene. So show some love and vote for it next week, yeah?


 
 
Where am I ?: The study...
How ya feelin' right about now ?: curiouscurious
Watcha listenin' to ?: Beauty and the Beast on my T.V...